Bye bye!

Well friends, it looks like my time at Livejournal has ended. I really do not enjoy this site, and so I am only going to be writing on my new blog from now on. I am still going to check in frequently to see what you all are up to, so keep me on your FL, and I hope you will come visit me at my new ministry blog:

Subscribe to it if you have a Blogger account, otherwise I hope you will say hi from time to time! :) 

Love you all <3

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2008 has been one of the most rewarding and challenging years I've ever lived.  I probably said something similar in my 2007 entry, but believe me when I say I had no idea back then how rich and precious and incredible life is - through both pain and pleasure. We're inherently built to find beauty on both sides of the fence, and I am glad I have!

Here's my official 2008 reflection and goodbye. May everyone have an amazing and safe New Year's this week! <3

You Rock My World

Sam, I have never in my life loved someone as much as I've loved the 8 pounds of sweetness that is little you.

The birth of our first child in July obviously was a huge part of 2008. His unexpected arrival 2 months early (I guess my baby shower was just THAT much fun that he wanted to come out and party... ) completely stunned us, but also blessed us tremendously as we realized what a tenacious little fighter he was.

He's home, healthy and through it all we learned what an AMAZING support system of friends & family we have, as well as what a remarkable gift it is to be a parent!  

He is my little man, my knight in cotton onesie, and I am so amazingly grateful for him. I wake up every morning and cannot believe he's here!

We will never have anything in common. I will always think she is a complete freak, and she will always think I am a shallow snob. But for some reason, we still enjoy each other's companionship whenever our paths cross.

She's in Santa Cruz, I'm in Sacramento, I am jealous she lives 10 minutes from the beach, and she agrees that she's in a pretty good spot :) I love my baby sister and admire some of the tough choices she has made this year.

Good job Becky, you're one of my roundabout heroes. Now get out of bed.


I have the best friends in the universe. It is pathetic that I cannot figure out how to layout just a handful of photos correctly, but here are just a few examples of the most amazing women in my life, which is probably a mistake to post because there are too many to slap up a photo of. I am so grateful for the impact they've had on me. There are so many weekly and monthly traditions that make my heart so happy. And for those of you who are out of state and far're never really far from me at all <3.


My dance ministry has continued to revolutionize my life. I am so excited to be committing time in 2009 to expanding and developing it more than ever before. There are so many inside jokes and special moments with this wonderful crew. From the youngest child in her first pair of ballet shoes, to the dancers that are older than me and have taught me how to be stronger and more confident as a leader, I am forever grateful to them. They are my joy and remind me of God's love and His miracles every day I spend with them.

Things I Loved in 2008

According to Frank, I am the only person on earth who thought The Brothers Solomon was funny. I don't know if it was because I was pregnant or just plain loopy, but I loved it. The Secret Life of Bees was oh so melancholy, but beautifully done, and I definitely want to watch it again! Walk Hard and Step Brothers win the award for most inappropriate yet hilarious films I saw in '08, and well, you've gotta rent Tropic Thunder.

We axed the cable in 2008, but I still managed to maintain these addictions.

Books I am so glad I read: The Irresistable Revolution and The Heart of the Artist. I am relieved to know I am not the only moody, renegade Christian in the world :) 

Why I Already Love 2009

1) Going to the Caribbean in July
2) Going to Hawaii for Christmas
3) Project 365 is going to be amazing!
4) I'm going to get to write and dance more than ever before.
5) I might even........get some sleep :) 


A New Direction

It's almost the New Year, and I'm heading in a new direction! I've wanted to do this for a REALLY long time and I am so excited it is finally happening. Please take a moment to read and bookmark my new blog.

I'll still be posting here for now, but next year you'll definitely see more of a focus on this blog and maybe a sister one somewhere else for the rest of my life. Livejournal just isn't the greatest of platforms out there, but I don't want to lose my friends here either! So we'll see, we'll see!


Did anyone else catch that 20/20 special tonight about that high school musical? 
All I have to say is, it made me SO grateful for my non-egotistical dancers.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!!!! Thank you for not being like that Megan chick!!!!!!! <3

Hot Dog Humbleness

I love Weinerschnitzel. I know that when it comes to fast food, Weinerschnitzel is about as low quality disgusting as one can find. But I still have an intense love for it. I am ashamed.

There happens to be a Weinerschnitzel near the hospital Sam goes for his pediatric specialist appointments, and so I always feel obligated to pay homage to my favorite little hot dog dive whenever I am in the area. Today, they were having a great special - pick 4 for 4 bucks...and so even though I definitely didn't need 2 hot dogs, I got 2 hot dogs.

Sayonara, girlish figure (sarcasm. it's long gone.) 

So I ate one hot dog on my way home, ate my fries (why stop at polluting my body with just unidentifiable meat, right?) and then convinced myself I did not need the second hot dog.

Okay God, I said out loud. If I drive by a homeless person or anyone really looking remotely hungry, I will pull over and give them my hot dog.

Three freeway exits later, right on the way to my house, I passed a woman about my age, holding a "homeless and hungry" sign.

This is where I should be able to tell you that I made the easy U-turn so I could go back the half a block to her and hand her a free lunch.

But I didn't. Why didn't I? Because I am selfish and wanted my dang hot dog? 

Not exactly. More because I am selfish and absorbed with my life. I wanted to get the baby home, I wanted to get my writing deadlines done, I wanted to get the dance blog completed before the clock struck Tuesday, and I wanted to do a hundred other things that didn't really involve making a difference in this world.

I didn't used to be that sort of person. It seems the more content with life I become - great friends, wonderful church, handsome little son - the more worthless I become. I used to criticize the world for having an apparent drought of compassion - and then today as I threw my second hot dog in the fridge, I realized that I am just as responsible for that as most people I know.

I had asked God to to give me an opportunity to do a little nice thing. That exact opportunity arose, and I cruised on by.


You can make this choice by loving the Lord your God, obeying Him, and committing yourself firmly to Him.


~ Deuteronomy 30:20


I feel like I've been disobedient to God in a big way lately.......namely, He's placed a huge calling on my life that I've sort of been ignoring. I've been intimidated by the potential consequences of going out on a limb for the Lord. I have been scared of the instability that may come from leaving my little cushy life behind.


"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life.

~ Proverbs 13:12

But I think I am ready to fully take that chance now, and thanks to a really good meeting with one of my ministry heroes back in my college town, I feel a whole lot braver about it than I did before.


The Lord is good to those who depend on Him, to those who search for Him.

~ Lamentations 3:25

So please pray for me this week, as I present to some people my plan to ditch all of my little order to fulfill one huge one.


I really need two websites made. Anyone looking to earn some noteriety, and no money whatsoever? ;) I used to think it was my thing, but now I realize it so isn't.

I need help.


I Am So Impatient!!

So I really wanted to wait until actual Thanksgiving before putting Sam in his Thanksgiving outfit I got him, but I just couldn't resist today! :) It is a 0-7 pounds ensemble, but still pathetically too big, so the shirt and pants are rolled way up. But gosh I love my little boy :) 

Thank you Lord, that we have SO much to be thankful for this year!!!!!!!!


Flip, Don't Stalk!

Another major reason I miss the bay area to add to my list.........

I was driving through this parking lot near our house, and a person ran a stop sign, and then honked at me. Then they turned around to follow me, chasing me, honking at me, and then finally pulling alongside me and SCREAMING at me for not being acutely aware of THEIR mistake.

In the bay area, people don't have time for that crap. You would just get flipped off really quick and then move on with life.

My goodness.